Without her love

What has happened is never spoken
And everything around me has been broken
There's no words, just silence.
Hate, but no violence
Sadness, without tears
Humans, without fears.
When will the ground break?
Where is the open gate?
Slowly, the darkness creeps
But still, no one weeps.
All are withering
Hearts are shriveling.
This world has grown cold
There's no one left to hold.
I fear that I too will join them soon
Just when the light fades from the moon.
My beloved has been turned into a dove
And now I know what becomes of this world,
Without her love.

You have given me hope

You have given me hope for a better tomorrow
like an angel guiding me out of my sorrow.

My fears I want to let go
but can my past I forgo?

I ask you this as you have my heart
will you always be there so we may never part?

I don't have much to give
but I will give you my everyday to live.

I love life and what it has to give
because through the depths of sorrow I have learnt to live.

Piece of my heart

One thing I know for sure
is that words could never take the place
the place of how I feel
I keep saying I'll never love again
but every time I see you
I see your smile, and feel your warm touch
I fall so deep for you
you say you love her and not me
I let you go but you keep coming back
leaving my heart shredded
every time you walk away
holding on till the day
when you come back
with the missing pieces of my heart

I hear the floor creak

Closer and closer toward my bedroom door
I try to stay quiet hiding under the covers
Though I know he will find me
I hope he doesn't hear my heartbeat
Or hear me praying God will protect me tonight
But as I do I start to cry because I know
TONIGHT'S ONE OF THOSE NIGHTS
WHEN GOD JUST DOESN'T HEAR ME
I let out one more sob
And the door swings open
The hallway light shines in
But darkness radiates off him
So strong
He has a smile on his face
Nothing will stop him
I cant even defend myself
He gets on top of me holding me down
As I try to turn away
He pulls me back covering my mouth
I am too scared to breathe
A few weeks pass by
I hear him moaning my name
While stumbling around the house
Closer and closer he is walking toward me
Now he is on my bed
And before he even touches me
I begin to cry as I wonder
Where is God tonight?
This time I fight back
I yell
I cry
But he has ways to shut me up.
I do everything I can to loosen his grip
He's hurting me so bad but will not let me go
NO
He will not let me go
Not until he is finished
He leaves me lying there
To think of what I have lost
"I'm sorry" is not enough
He doesn't even realize what it has cost
Another few weeks pass by
The shame keeps getting worse
Too afraid to tell
Though its so hard to hide this pain
Day after day
I must have been bad that night
I hear him coming closer as I'm lying on the floor
Lord I would do anything
If you would keep him from walking through that door
But he does
I finally realize I am all alone
No one to protect me
No one who can save me...
So I lie back down to take it
But he throws me on the bed
And makes me relive my worst fears
When I just want to be dead
I don't want to kill myself
I just want to die
God, why have you abandoned me?
Can you not see the tears I cry?
I will hurt myself later
After you have hurt me
This blood that stains the sheets
Tangled up on my bed
Reminds me of the words
The images you have put inside my head
I can still feel you touching me, grabbing me
Forcing my body closer to yours
The feeling of your cold fingers all over me
I constantly try to wash away
From my scarred skin
Since that first night
I live my life in fear
You are the reason I love too easily
Why I cannot love at all.
Because I trusted you
I can no longer trust
The pain I hold inside
You will never know
They will never understand
That my scars don't even begin to show...

Keep your head up

Keep your head up, because SUCCESS doesn't come from giving up. Just DREAM big, WORK hard, and BELIEVE that you can do anything you put your mind to.

Difference; vast as sky

If wishes were ever meant to come true my deepest wish would be to let an innocent heart's wish to come true'

Everlasting is nothing either in the world or the heart,
Yet when eyes sees an innocent's pain the ripping sensation reaches the heart playing hard the strings with the note of sadness,
How can I turn into a cold fish to ignore such little soul?
It's not the crocodile tears that I shed seeing her trouble and realising how much blessed we are ,
It's truely genuine;
All the way from the true heart of mine,

Unfolding she is just her childhood,
She has several petals to unfold to blossom as a flower,
Heard lord; the Almighty sees all and never lets her child cry but what about her?
When will her turn come to seek for life all aspire to be,

All my eyes could see,
Ears could hear,
Mind could think,
Heart could feel,
Yet I was totally helpless,
And I died within seeing my own helplessness,
She is a gifted child; only thing is that she is little different than the rest,
She lacks the power to convey or receive proper message of others and herself,

Like all kids how I wish her to go to school,
See new faces,
Have lots of friends,
Yet wishes remain as wishes for me cause she is sorted different,
And the very reason make her world all different from the rest,
It burns my heart to see her enduring so much in such a budding stage,
Her world is totally different from the rest,

She is a mirror to reflect us how blessed we really are for all ain't lucky enough,
She wishes to speak yet lacks speech,
She has a little heart, A little heart has a little dream,
A dream to be fulfilled; to study,
Lead a normal life,
Yet all life ain't as we expect for;
And dream for her remains a dream,

It aches me from within,
Through the dark end of other people's life I could see the light of our life,
With unwavering love and support we are really blessed,
And the life that we live is a dream for somebody,
So when you still have life think good, speak good and do good,
Have faith in God!

Hard is life for some
When it seems easy for you, do live well
For we may not get this life back again...

Prayers
Cheers!

Positive thought

Every moment of life, more specifically the future, holds surprises. If you have a positive attitude, you shall make most of them pleasant and beautiful. Enjoy life with meaningful developments throughout the course of it.

Never apologize

Never apologize for being sensitive or emotional. this is a sign that you have a big heart and aren't afraid to let others see it: showing your emotions is a sign of strength and authencity. When you get little you want more, when you get more you desire even more, but when you lose it you realize little was enough.. Be happy with what you have. Do what you need to do instead of what you want to do. Long-term rewards are always better than the short term satisfactions. Always.

Affliction

Can you possibly fathom how it feels
To live without the unparalleled thing
That you really, truly, genuinely want,
That makes your heart throb and sing?
I know you presumptively haven't,
Or you'd beyond doubt be just like me;
Closemouthed from the inside out,
Yearning, thriving, wanting just to see
That one person I really, truly, undoubtedly want,
The only one to end my endless, bliss less drought.
Passing over to me a illimitable sliver of happiness,
And then, on spur of moment, I'm free of all doubt.
At that very occasion, I think it's all gratifying
When I'm floating buoyantly on thin air-
Then I'm plummeting groundward
When I realize they're no longer there.
Do you realize how that feels?
To be a carapace, abandoned, and hollow,
Knowing nothing but to brace yourself
For the inevitable pain that soon follows.
Living without the sole thing on this great Earth
Heaven or Hell, that makes you whole and completes you
Is not a desirable life, believe me when I say,
The Emptiness is not something you wish to live through.
The forsaken, deceiving semblance slowly furnishes me
With outlandish animosity, hunger, and a strong desire
When my only prize in life, what I live for, is gone,
To burn everyone and everything with resentment as my fire.
Great Earth, Sky above, divine Heaven, and the depths of Hell
Bellow for me at once, each in attempt to gain me with lure.
I lament, I scream, I fall to my knees, and ruefully for my suffering,
For this terrible affliction, there is no cure.

Being betrayed

Being betrayed by someone you love is the worst feeling ever especial if that someone is your first love. I deleted all his photos and texts yet I can't seem to delete his voice in my mind. No day goes by without me thinking about him. Because of him I can't trust any guy who says he loves me since I know where that trust landed me the last time with him.
When I met him I thought I had found love, I thought I was blessed and others were envious of me. But when he left me to die with this unending pain for the love I lost, I stopped breathing when you walked out that door. You left with my heart and I can't stand the pain I remember the sacrifices I made but they were all for nothing. I want to hate you but I can't. How do I make it stop? How do I end all this torment? How did you learn to live again?
If I can say I'm ready to love and be loved again, I'd be telling a lie. I was betrayed by my own love. The one who knows my weakness, my inabilities, the ones who knows how weak and vulnerable I am. An angel whom I've shared almost my whole life with, as he was crushing my heart he laughed. While busy dancing he was slowly crushing it and later gave me the pieces on a silver plater as he left me! The pieces are still on my hand, and the scars are still there from where it cut me.

You hear the ring

You hear the ring, you know just what to say,
but then there's no answer, and your confidence goes away.
Your eyes blink back tears, and you begin to doubt.
Nothing comes to mind, but this is what comes out...
"Hey, I know it's late and you may not get this for a while,
but I was hoping you would be the one to maybe make me smile.
I know I've waited far too long to tell you what is true,
but now I'm here to tell you that baby, I love you.
I know this may not mean much coming from me now,
but I will make this up to you if you will just tell me how.
I know that you still love me. It's written on your face,
but you're so good at hiding it, it's hard to find a trace.
Let me back inside your life. I swear I'll make this right.
Call me back when you can. I love you baby, goodnight."

My Everything

You're my love, my life
The air that I breathe
You're my soul, my happiness
The all that I need
You're my light, my dark
The stars in the sky
You're my ups, my downs
The reason I try
You're my strength, my weakness
The love from the start
You're my heartache, my pain
The beat of my heart
You're my tears, my joy
the love that you bring
You're my world, my galaxy
Becky, you're my everything